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Thursday, May 5, 2011

Today is Elsie's Funeral

My dear sweet mother in law died peacefully a week ago today. My husband and I had just been to see her. She had not been feeling well that day. She was in her bed and said..... I have been going through something today. We asked what was wrong. Was her back hurting again? She said no, my back is good but I just don't feel as wonderful as I usually do. My husband said he was glad that at 93 she felt wonderful on most days.

We told her about the puppy that we were planning on buying and she seemed to pep up. She was looking forward to her daughter coming home from Arizona in a few days and her other son coming to visit the next morning. We laughed when hubby told her that the undertaker's wife Jane had asked about her. Elsie said,  she probably wants me to hurry up!.  Jane is a wonderful person and she is not like that. Elsie said oh i know she is, I was just kidding. Sure she hears that a lot.

Before we left she hugged us both and told us how greatful she was that we come to see her. She always tell us before we leave how happy she is to have us right next door. I kissed her and told her she was the best. My husband told her she was the sweetest sweetest thing. We felt her head which was a little damp but not warm. We asked Evelyne to take her temperature and tell us right away if it went up. We planned to check on her in the morning.

According to Evelyne , she had more energy after our visit. They planned to wake up early and watch the royal wedding. Elsie got up to cross the hallway and Evelynd heard her. Elsie closed her eyes and stepped over to the other side. Evelyne caught her and laid her down gently. She was gone just like that. Christine said  " Leave it to Nana to die a happy death!"

I know she was old and I know it was a good way to die but oh I just want her back. I would have told her more than just you are the best. I would have told her that she was a joy and a comfort to me since I met her when I was 16 years old. I would have told her that I am greatful that she raised a son who is my love. A man who has always been faithful, kind and true. I would have thanked her for seeing my children every day of their lives while they were growing up. She loved them like a rock.  I would tell her that she was my mother, my neighbor and my friend. I wish I would have asked her more questions. I just want to still know that she is there. She will always be a big part of me and I miss her so.