I confirmed the airline tickets this afternoon. When I called the land line that Beth had left me, Ian said that she was not there. She did not come back last night and did not answer her cell phone all day.
Hmmm. She either will or will not make it home. There is no use thinking about it much. I wonder if she was planning to wait till after I replaced her cellphone to sell it? She is probably with J the boyfriend but I do not have his number. I will keep my cell phone with me tomorrow in case she calls.
My sister wrote a beautiful witness letter. I will post it later. It made me cry to remember that people actually wanted Beth to babysit for them. At one time, she was responsible beyond her years.
If she comes back here binging , she could well go to jail before her disability hearing. It is a small town and the local police have given her lots of chances. She has worn out her welcome with them. Well, if she is in jail, I will know where she is and if she is alive each day.
I don't know what I will do if she does not make it to the hearing. Once again she tests my nerves, resolve and sense of right and wrong. There is no plan too intricate,or hard won for her to throw away. Time will tell.
Today was glorius in Jersey. The azaleas are just flaunting themselves while cherry blossoms puddle at our feet. Thank God it is Spring.
On Being Afraid
1 month ago