If I were to rate Beth's mood on a scale of one to five, today and yesterday were both on the 2 level. Below average at best. When I came home today both Joy and my husband were at their wit's end with Beth. They said leave her alone, she is having a bad day.
Joy told me that she was collecting change! We have all seen this before and it leads to no good. In the past I would have tried my hardest to keep her at my side through bribery, distraction or straight out confrontation. This time I just asked her if she was ok. She said yes. I said, "you don't look alright babe." She said, "I just got real mad watching tennis. All those people who still play at 40 and I was ruined by 17. "
What could I say? "Oh, that must be frustrating ." Yes, she said, " I am angry and resentful." Then she told me she was collecting money for cigarettes. She wanted Joy to take her to the bank to get the change converted and then get the cigarettes and go to Emily's house.
I took her to the market and bought the cigarettes.We dropped her off at Emilys. Will she be ok? Will she make her apt. with the public defender tomorrow morning or the gynocologist tomorrow? Will she use the change in her purse for drugs? She will or she won't. It is not that I do not care. I have just learned to detach. It did not come easy. My attempts to control her always just make her mad.
On the positive side, perhaps, she felt her own frustration and decided to seek the company of a friend. That would be a healthy response. We still need you prayers my friends.
Stream of thoughts....
1 week ago