In the midst of all the pity I have been feeling for my daughter recently, I got really pissed last night. I did not go on and on about it and I only felt a little bad about what I said.
Beth called crying. She said she fell off a bicycle and smashed her phone. This made the hairs on the back of my neck stand up and I felt a quick rush of adrenaline surge through my body. I am sure I am not the only one whose addict sells their cell phones for drugs. That is the history.
She was very convincing. She always is. I actually told her that she could buy a cheap phone at walmart or sprint but I would not be replacing her 150 dollar phone. She would have to get a friend to front her the money. When I see the phone, then I will send them a check.
I said, "Beth, how can you come home in this state? I will put you in a hotel. I do not want you running off in the middle of the night to buy drugs or having dealers at my house. I will not go through that with you."
She said, "You think I sold my phone but I did not. You will see that my knee is a bloody mess when I come home." I gave the phone to her Dad. He listened and said, "Well, do you have the flight plans written down so you can follow them? OK, then I will see you when you get here."
After hanging up he turned to me and said " Bicycle my ass! She either sold it for drugs or fell because she was high."
Part 2 of "When you are So Mad!!!"
2 months ago
It's truly a journey through hell being the parent of an addict. It sucks the life out of me sometimes. But, it's comforting to know that I'm not on this journey alone. I hope things go smoothly for you all when Beth gets home. :)
ReplyDeleteI have learned to lower my expectations until I am not shocked or surprised. Take care of yourself.
ReplyDeleteI just wanted to say your previous post really touched me, and my heart aches for your daughter. I will keep praying for her healing, from both the effects of the rape and the addictions.
ReplyDeleteThis post struck home too.... isn't it "funny" how we develop such radar for being aware of when our addicts might be trying to pull one over on us? Sigh.
I hope her trip home goes smoothly and that you are able to have some calm, happy moments together as a family.
mine once tried to get me to return all of HER christmas presents and give her the money becuz she had "lost" all of her money 'accidentally'.
ReplyDeletehow dumb do they think we are? as dumb as them??
cuz their excuses make perfect sense to them, but no one else
LOL