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Sunday, August 15, 2010

Ghostly Girl

I saw a friend of Beth,s street walking today. It made me very very sad with a soul gripping grief that I could not shake all day. I thought about stopping the car and talking to her. What is a beautiful and sweet girl like you doing here? W hat can I do to help? What have you tried to get out of this? I was afraid to do it. I was too exhausted by my own life to do it but I felt a certain guilt in just passing her by. I do not know her parents or even her last name but she said her mom was a teacher and that she went to catholic school.

Beth said that they were not seeing each other anymore as this girl was shooting heroine. Now I see her walking down a street that is a known drug zone....... circling around...... walking very slow in her short shorts and looking very very dazed. This ghostly girl has haunted me all day.

It could be Beth but it is not. Yet, they were recently friends and it disturbs me. I have told none of my family or real world friends what is unnerving me but now you know. How many more beautiful and loved young people will we loose to this plague. God help us all.

6 comments:

  1. My heart is breaking...so many ghosts

    Carolyn
    www.parentofanaddictcdcb.wordpress.com

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  2. It is so sad what addiction and mental illness destroys. I volunteered for Project Homeless and one day a young man sat down across from me. His story paralleled my daughters so closely that it brought tears to my eyes. I can just barely keep her safe. His parents lost their grip on this sweet young man. I found him a safe room for a month.
    There are some youth projects that comb the streets looking for young at risk kids. Do you have anything like that in your area? Maybe you could alert them to this young woman?
    You are a kind soul, Anna.
    xx kris

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  3. Thanks Kristin,

    I do not know of any outreach organizations though if she presents herself at social services they might help with emergency housing. I do not know for a fact that she is homeless but it does look that way.

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  4. I totally get why she haunts you. Every time I see a tragic news story where alcohol or drugs or involved, it haunts me. I've heard it said in 12-steps that the inevitable outcome of untreated addiction/alcoholism is jail, institution, or death.

    Being the mother to an addict for me has been like watching my child drown while help is so close but it just can't reach him.

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  5. here are so many like her out there - males and females (but it seems that males usually steal from others and females sell themselves). Its HEARTBREAKING. I don't know the answers anymore....I hate that its so prevalent and just keeps going on and on and on....

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  6. Such a sad thing. Why anyone continues on this path is difficult for me to understand. But I am not an addict and will not understand. I can only pray and have compassion.

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