I went back to work today. Usually that is the best thing for me to get my mind off any troubles. Today I had a hard time concentrating though everyone was very understanding.
My understanding of dying at home has changed since witnessing my father in laws death over the past few weeks. Now I look at it like giving birth at home. One hopes to spend the entire pregnancy at home not in the hospital but the actual birth is better handled by the best professionals with the best medications for maximum comfort.
It might be better to die peacefully at home but unfortunately many deaths are not so peaceful even when great physical pain is not involved. When my time is nearly at hand, I would prefer to go to a hospice center but that is me. We honored his wishes as he expressed them right up to the end.
Beth is supposed to get out of the hospital today but I have not heard from her. When I called there was no answer.
On Being Afraid
1 month ago