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Friday, January 1, 2010

still no word

Well, we got word that my father in law was a little better this morning. He is a very tough old bird.

I have still had no word from Beth. If I call and ask about her I am calling negative attention on her. If I find out that she has not arrived then that adds a lot of worry to my plate. But obviously, I am already worried.

I wonder if they would release my deposit money to her.

New Years was overpriced but the musicians were really good. At least we shooed away the old year and rang in the new.


  1. I hope that you get some rest tonight, I know it will be hard. I don't know how you are holding back from calling to see if she arrived. That's will power! Not sure if you're expecting her at the halfway house or PH? Maybe give it until a certain time tomorrow and then call? I'm not sure what you mean by "calling negative attention on her", but there are so many things I wish I had done but didn't do b/c I was worried how it would affect her "coolness" with her friends. (You can hit me with the fat nerf bat now that I admitted that!) Now it's another story if it would bring negative - as in dangerous - attention to her.
    Just pray that God will give you the answer as to what to do or at least give you some peace.
    It is good news that your father-in-law is doing better. That's nice to hear :)
    You and Beth are in my prayers! And I too will ask for guidance for you.
    God Bless.

  2. I am reading your side bar. Grown child. 8 years of pain. Dominating your life. Abandon. My heart goes out to you. I totally get it. In my life you could add Grown Grandfather, Grown Mother and Grown Brother to Grown Child. I pray that, today, you walk in peace. A lot can be accomplished by the busyness of prayer. You can spend a long time asking..if I..if I..but..I wonder..and never have a good answer.

  3. I feel for you. It puts a huge, dark cloud over the holidays, no matter how we try to rationalize it.

    BUT, it is her life. As they say in AA "let her whirl." When she gets tired of spinning, she will find the inner resolve needed to change.

    All you can do is take care of yourself, and remember the rest of your family. Getting support is huge, and you have started with this blog.

  4. Good news about your father-in-law. Glad you went out and did something for NY Eve, that's important. I ignored the holidays this year.

    As for Beth, I hope you hear something soon. Are you afraid of calling and finding out she's not there? Is she allowed to make calls?

  5. Madison: You must be very strong after having dealt with so much addiction.

    Heather's Mom: I appreciate all your prayers.

    Lou: I can't stop her from whirling so whirl she will.

    Barbara: Yes, I was afraid that she would not be there. I knew that she could call me all along.

    Thanks to all of you. I am greatful for your company and support.