I opened and old backpack of Beth's yesterday. I was going to give it to my little niece. It was disgusting when I found drug paraphanalia in there. Long neckd tweasers, long necked scissors, curtain pins and an eye dropper all in a nice little case. I put the back pack out for the trash instead of giving it away.
Later in the day I opened all the compartments in the back pack. At that point I found goggles and a biology notebook. It suddenly occured to me that what I found before was a dissecting kit for the biology course that Beth was taking the last time she lived at home!
Today, she called me from a laundromat where she had recharged her cellphone. It sounded like there was a hell of a party going on. She sounded happy maybe just a little too happy.
It seems to me it is natural to have these suspicions. They probaby will not go away for a long time. Nevertheless I do not want to over react to my own suspicions. There are bound to be times that I think she is telling a lie but she is not. That does not mean that I have to give her a hard time about it. If it is really my business I will verify the facts. If not, like today I will find comfort in what my sponsor says......"That which you need to know will come to you without any furthur effort or action on your part."
Take care all,
On Being Afraid
1 month ago